If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have felt the enormity. If not for that few minutes, maybe I wouldn't have known the feeling of not wanting to lose someone so desparately. If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have felt the reluctance of separation, so intense. If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have known how much regret it could bring me, should I fail. If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have experienced the frustration and desparation when every single thing didn't go our way.

09:53
'SK what's the latest time Fuseng can wait?'
'By right, he's supposed to be in now, but if we delay, the latest is 10am sharp.'
Vivien and I were still waiting for the mrt to leave tanah merah, which meant that it was a lost cause.

All of a sudden, it was both of us against the entire world. 17 just refuses to appear. The MRT's door shut right in front of Vivien's face. I watched the doors of the MRT which could get us through in time closing right before me, knowing that the next train will only arrive 10 minutes later, yet there was nothing I could do. We ran up the 2 longggggg escalators which left us breathless. Running after the skytrain just to miss it by a few seconds, when the next one is 5 minutes later and we were already racing against time.

By the time I saw Fuseng, there was nothing that I could used or do to show my appreciation/relief/gratefulness except crying. I didn't expect that reaction from myself, I thought I would only be utterly speechless if I managed to see him, but the next thing I knew was that I was crying and panting. That feeling of making it in time despite everything around us which seemed to hint that we're not gonna make it through.

Though till now, there's still a tinge of melancholy.