Had a dressing crisis early afternoon. Crisis, indeed.

I'm a KBOX addict. Specifically, we. Yes yes, we went to kpkb for 5 hours in KBOX. I meant, literally. I wonder what ran through the minds of the people who past our rooms. 5 kids, old enough to be working, jumping about on the sofa. Worst, not having the slightest self-awareness of our, to-die-for vocals.

Spare me. I dread walking for what seemed like miles. Spare me. I have a strong aversion towards electronics. Considering the massive crowd that accompanies. Sweat, from others, conveniently seeking refuge on my skin. I sincerely hope I'll wake up with my mindset changed.

'Guai guai. Boy. Popular'
'That's a triple oxymoron.'

'Do you sure you don't need my help?'
'You mean, are you sure you don't need my help?'

Irrevocably in love with bread, I am. I went to cartel and felt like a free-loader. Capsized the butter, dropped the bread, ate bread-crumps look-alike. Wooden flakes from chopping board, that is.

'If you truly love someone, you will give him/her your everything. Even if it means your life. But the best thing you can offer to him/her, is freedom.'
-Adapted from SK

Promise me tomorrow starts with you.

I must have either walked past a black cat or under a ladder, sometime which I don't remember. Because I've been down on luck recently. It's making my blood boil and this untimely retarded spastic irritating unlucky streak or whatsoever you call it is turning my life upside down, and its forcing me to kill someone to release my frustrations, every single second. Period.

To begin with, Audition has died on me. Fine. I've been sacrificing my sleep past days, just to get its ass working again, but it failed. Fine. My phone died on me today, too, when I needed it the mostttttt. Bottomline. I'm cash-strapped, because of birthday bombs, and things which I consider 'miscellaneous'. It devastated my wallet.

Still, Teacher's day was awesome. Excluding MsCheong's over-reaction. Exluding what they call games. Excluding a part of me - I don't know how dominant that part might be - that I yearned for nothing more than sleep. Joel really worked the crowd, though I still couldn't get over the fact that he posed like a prom queen during photo-taking. And that he even got nominated.

I'm faced with tons of decisions these days. Teenage life, invariably. My self-confidence reflects a negative. But I guess I did hide it well, at least from everyone. I force myself to accept, what I know I would definitely be unable to. Never give up on the things you love, because you will never be the same without it. Yet, persistence does backfire.

An interesting e-mail, edited.

Have you ever wondered what hurts the most? Saying something wishing you hadn't? Or, saying nothing wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart. If you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever build some barriers, keep some emotional sanity because you were afraid of losing what you already had with someone?

Your heart decides who it likes, who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own, when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person doesn't care as much, or even at all.

Life is all about risks, and it requires you to jump.

What would you do if everytime you fell in love you had to say goodbye?

What would you do if everytime you need someone but they would never be there?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you feel?

What would you do if you loved someone more than ever but couldn't have them?

I've decided to throw the word 'examination' out of my dictionary. hahah PE was exceptionally fun today. People tend to treasure more when they know its their last. But many a times, we don't know its our last.

HAHA.

So, that's all the talks about being fair. What an oxymoron. No doubt I deserve the punishment, but somehow I have that bit of injustice within me. Since its a sensitive topic and there's nothing I can change even if I drone on for 10 pages, I might as well forget about it and tomorrow will be a better day, definitely.

There's ball tomorrow. Wheee :D

This song reminds me of Fuseng.

Rooftops - Lost prophets

When our time is up,
When our lives are done,
Will we say we've our fun?

Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now,
Everybody scream your heart out.

All the love I've met,
I have no regrets.
If it all ends now,
I'm set.

Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now,
Everybody scream your heart out.

Standing on the rooftops,
(Wait until the bombs drop)
This is all we got now,
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret,
(Watching every sunset)
We'll listen to your heartbeat,
(All the love that we found)

Standing on the rooftops,
(Wait until the bombs drop)
This is all we got now,
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret,
(Watching every sunset)
We'll listen to your heartbeat,
(All the love that we found)

Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now,
Everybody scream your

If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have felt the enormity. If not for that few minutes, maybe I wouldn't have known the feeling of not wanting to lose someone so desparately. If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have felt the reluctance of separation, so intense. If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have known how much regret it could bring me, should I fail. If not for that few minutes, I wouldn't have experienced the frustration and desparation when every single thing didn't go our way.

09:53
'SK what's the latest time Fuseng can wait?'
'By right, he's supposed to be in now, but if we delay, the latest is 10am sharp.'
Vivien and I were still waiting for the mrt to leave tanah merah, which meant that it was a lost cause.

All of a sudden, it was both of us against the entire world. 17 just refuses to appear. The MRT's door shut right in front of Vivien's face. I watched the doors of the MRT which could get us through in time closing right before me, knowing that the next train will only arrive 10 minutes later, yet there was nothing I could do. We ran up the 2 longggggg escalators which left us breathless. Running after the skytrain just to miss it by a few seconds, when the next one is 5 minutes later and we were already racing against time.

By the time I saw Fuseng, there was nothing that I could used or do to show my appreciation/relief/gratefulness except crying. I didn't expect that reaction from myself, I thought I would only be utterly speechless if I managed to see him, but the next thing I knew was that I was crying and panting. That feeling of making it in time despite everything around us which seemed to hint that we're not gonna make it through.

Though till now, there's still a tinge of melancholy.

Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark but there were stars - points of lights and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore, and there was no reason for anything.

-Edward

The 43rd National Day is, wonderful. I love it we unite and do things together. We worked the cheer like magic! :D That kind of satisfaction, you'll never know unless you experience it. We didn't work our ass out for this NDP just because its crucial for page28. Neither did we do it to overpower some classes. We did it because it was our last item we put up, as a class, altogether. Thanks every 4A individual for making it such a huge success. =]

President Nathan:

President Nathan has 4 million children,
有些是华人, dan ada melayu,
Sila Indian girl and some are Eurasians,
And all are good as one.
We veli kiasu, so we are no.1,
Everything bagus, especially our good.
Kway teow mee goreng laksa roti prata,
Are finger licking good,
SEDAP!

SARS Song:

Some say leh, some say lah,
4A says must 爱国家.
Everybody we have a part to play,
To stay as one till the end of the day.
Chinese Angmoh Indian Malay,
United as one so come what may.
9th August is National Day,
So come on everybody lets celebrate!
It's Singapore's birthday,
So 推掉你的约会,
Don't give excuses just,
Come and sing, sing with me, sing with me lah!
Come Singaporeans,
Lend me your voices,
Lets make some noises for,
Singapore, Singapore, Singapore AH!
WE <3>

As for the emotional side, I shall not mention. Enough of tears! Be well Fuseng! We'll all be counting down to the day you're back! :)

On National day we went to Esplanade for the fireworks! ^^

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Eclipse is when someone shadows over the other.

If its just about throwing sarcastic remarks, you would've thrashed us hands down.

Unfortunately, it isn't.